Yeah i know we all can relate to THAT feeling! lol. It's amazing that after 9 yrs of this i still get butterflies in my stomach when i hear the phone ring (in my not normally programed ring tone for him....) and i answer "Hello!" in that dead give away hopeful voice. Then after a breathless 5 seconds (due to the lovely echoing delay, lol) i hear, "Hi! How are you?", and then i feel my world shift back into a calmer state.

I hate that he's gone...yet

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i feel at PEACE with my life: past, present and the hopes for my future.

Its a great feeling. i dont really know whats brought this "epiphany" on but i'm not questioning it.

for once I'm truly excited. things in the marriage are growing better and stronger with every given day. School is coming together, I'm enrolled to start in June. I feel positive about my upcoming surgery. which is a huge relief. it has been stressing me since before i even left the hospital LOL.

I ac

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so i was talking to my husband and reading up on some wife issues, its it true [[not that id ever consider it]] that if we get divorced id get half of everything meaning BAH? we'd still get it but bein his ex wife id get half?